Many of the gifts given this week have surprised me, maybe as much as they have surprised the recipients. I went into this week without a plan; I had no idea what I would give, which is way out of my comfort zone. Some days I didn't know the gift or the recipient until it appeared before me. Chocolates for a helpful sales clerk, a token of friendship sent to a friend, and providing support were three of my favorite gifts this week. They were my favorites, I think, because they were the most spontaneous, and (I believe) they may have made a significant difference in the lives of the receivers.
Giving this week has been thought-provoking. By giving so consciously, I've noticed how frequently I give unconsciously. I also recognize more where I don't give when I easily could. Now, I am looking for ways to give all day long. As it turns out, I've given more than one gift per day, because I haven't counted putting extra money in the meter for the next person or adding that dollar to your bill at the check out line for a donation, but these are things I'm doing more of. I find myself more often in a space of abundance rather than scarcity - most of my scarcity thinking centers around time, and I've managed (not struggled) to make time to give this week. Even on the day that I woke up feeling like I just didn't have the energy to give anything else, I was given a wonderful opportunity to give, and that gave me energy. It goes without saying that this has been uplifting for me, and I think, I hope, it's been uplifting for some other people too.
Not surprisingly, I've frequently questioned if I'm doing this "right." I've been journaling as a part of this process, reflecting on emotions that come up before and after giving, writing out some affirmations, and (inconsistently) meditating on my intention. I know that I can still put more into this experiment, and thus, give more and get more out of it. I'm looking forward to this next week. I'm going in without a plan, again, and trusting that the opportunities to give will present themselves.