I couldn't help but wonder if these phone calls meant something. I believe in meaningful coincidences; in other words, I think it's important to pay attention when the universe sends you messages, especially if you've been asking questions and seeking answers. But, I haven't been pondering a return to my coaching business, at least not right now. The topic has come up though, in one form or another, in the recent past. And, the calls, along with seemingly unrelated questions or comments from friends, have had me thinking more about what I want.
I definitely noticed how difficult it was for me to turn a client away; part of me longs for a different (not better or worse) sense of accomplishment, longs for that rush I used to get when a client had an "A-ha" moment, longs for making a difference with my unique strengths and skills. That part of me really wanted to say "I'd be happy to work with you." I didn't say this, though. Maybe I would have if the calls had been from ideal clients, if the new babysitter we're so excited about was back from Russia, if I wasn't so out of practice, if a second child weren't in the back (or front) of our minds, if all the stars were aligned. It just didn't feel right, for one or all of these reasons. The other truth is, I'm also a one-thing-at-a-time kinda gal. It's going to take a lot of practice and some coaching (for me) to master splitting my attention between work and my kids.
I'm fortunate to have a choice between working at home and working elsewhere. I'm sure there will be a time, once again, to choose a career as a life coach, but for now, a career as mom and home-life manager is my choice. As challenging as my current job is, it's also pretty wonder-full. So for now, I am (as one of my coaching colleagues so eloquently suggested) content "to be fully engaged in the wonder of these years."