While I love the holidays, I'm drained by all the travel and busyness. I recharge my body and my mind with time to myself. I need time and space to process one thing before I move onto the next. It's nearly the eve of the New Year, and I haven't even posted pictures from Christmas; I think I'll be posting our final three celebrations together after this weekend's festivities. I haven't had the time to do any "reflection and planning" for the New year, nor a post about it. All of this will have to wait, though, because I can't wait to reflect on one of the best Christmas presents I received this year - one that added to the travel and the busy, but more importantly, it added to the FUN!
I'm fascinated with movies, actors, and the film industry in general. My friend, Cam, who is an actor in Los Angeles, knows this. And, I'm sure he knew he'd be making my entire year, and maybe my life, when he invited me to act with him in a short film that his writer/director friend was shooting this week on the west side of the state.
Cam and I have acted together before...in junior high school. But, I haven't been on a stage in more years than I care to admit. For some reason, he believed I could pull it off, and no amount of insecurity on my part was going to keep me from accepting an offer like this, so Tuesday afternoon we reconnected for an exhausting, challenging, and amazing 17 hours.
Cam and I enjoyed catching up on the car ride and the long spaces between takes. We had plenty of time to cover the five years since we last saw each other, because the sci-fi script required that we shoot all through the night. That part was exhausting, but everything else was just fun. I loved learning how it all works - how long it takes to set up a shot; how many shots from different angels with different lighting are required for just two or three lines; how an actor has to not only get into character and deliver lines, but also move to just the right spot on the floor and look at just the right spot, which might be high above the head of the person she's speaking to and might change at any given time; how insanely hard the director and crew work. I remembered how much I used to love being on stage, how much I enjoy acting (even if I never considered myself a very talented actor), how much I miss working with a group of people on something creative. I was definitely challenged, though. My nerves held me back in the beginning; I worried that my amateur status would show through too much, that I'd be letting everyone down with a less-than-believable performance. I won't really know how I did until I see the final product. Thankfully, I was just one small part of the big picture. Cam gave a phenomenal performance, and I have no doubt the movie-makers will craft a spectacular picture.
I know I'm failing to include a thousand details of the experience. My body and mind still feel so jet-lagged. But, there's a small bit of adrenaline left over, and that will have to keep me going through one more weekend of travel! I'm so grateful to Cam and Geoff, the director, for giving me the opportunity to be a part of this. I took a risk (and so did they); I learned, grew, and challenged myself; I had SO MUCH FUN. If I'm ever given the opportunity, I can't wait to do it again.