I'm in need of a brain dump today. I do "brain dumps" often. I have my notebook full of lists where I clear my head before meditating, sleep, exercise, or anytime I need to really be present for the moment. Often I just write a list, sometimes it's stream of consciousness thoughts, other times it's coherent writing.
I'm standing at the counter having just put the kale chips and salmon in the oven and the millet on the stove to cook. Anna and Mo D are reading in the chair. Blake is on his way home to spend a few minutes with our girl before we head out to dinner together. I'm looking forward to some time with my husband this evening, some time to process and talk about the coming months. In a way, this is a celebratory dinner, even though it was planned before we had reason to celebrate. We are putting an official offer in to buy a new home. Given the circumstances surrounding the sale of this house, unless an inspection shows something is really wrong, the house should be ours in a couple of short months. It's this, along with the lack of sleep from Anna's sickness this week, along with numerous other transitions, happenings, and thoughts that are making my head a little (OK, a lot) FULL and a little CRAZY!
In my head this week:
Making an offer on the house, buying the house, moving out of our house and into a new house, decorating and painting and fixing the house.
Getting our house ready to sell, showing the house, moving our clutter to storage so the house is "showable."
Doing all of these things with a toddler.
Trying to get pregnant (trust me, this is only in my head right now)!
Moving Anna out of the crib.
Worry about Anna's continued anxiety around other kids.
Blake traveling in May amidst house closing, selling, and moving.
My first weekend away (alone) coming up soon.
Jury duty questionnaire and the impending summons I'm guessing may arrive around moving time.
A conflict with a friend that's leaving me sad and confused.
Parenting philosophies, where do I (and we) fit, how does this impact friendships, preschool, when we'll start, and where to go.
I think that's enough.